In my endless journey toward self improvement, I have found that the one factor that holds me back the most is having an ample amount of time. My current agony is that I haven’t found the time to write… in the past 10 years… I have plenty of free writes, journal entries, letters, and notes to show where my love of the written word has manifested. But I don’t have a book, or a blog, I don’t even have consistent Facebook posts. It hurts the San Diego State English Major in me, that the short, powerful, and informative blog posts, that are totally worth reading, have gone unwritten. I decided to remedy this situation by vowing to spend at least 10 hours a week on my professional writing.
That was a tangible reality for about 15 minutes (I think) because I quickly found out that I have lost the concept of time. I don’t know what 5, 10 or 15 minutes are anymore. How long does it really take me to brush my teeth? If you would ask me, I would tell you: “It takes me 2 minutes to brush my teeth, 30 seconds for each quadrant.” The reality is however, that I spend a whole lot of time brushing my teeth (I think). I also spend a lot of time trying to get my brain to slow down (I think). The problem is that everything that I used to use, to keep me paying attention to time (bells, schedules, tv programming), is gone.I used to just go with the flow, and now that Im supposed to set the pace for flow, I am at a complete lost. Im like Arizona, in my own time zone.
So this week, I am giving myself a more attainable task, the task of seeing how much time I really spend doing “stuff.” Id love to say that I’m going to keep a detailed journal and then make some graphs, but the truth is that I’ll probably just be setting a timer.